Well it’s official, I’m not going to succeed at NaNoWriMo doing the whole planning and outlining thing. I had it all set up. I had a game plan. And then my brain was like “Nope, not gonna work!” So I’m going to do what I did last year, take my idea and work it out one written word at a time.
If I’m going to be successful with NaNoWriMo two years in a row, then I have to stay true to who I am as a first draft writer. No planning out the idea. Just taking the idea and running with it. I know what my end goal is. Obviously, it’s 50,000 words in a month. But it’s also to complete the first draft, so that I’ll have a foundation for the second draft.
Write the crap. Then clean the crap up. That appears to be my modus operandi when writing!
So, these past few days I have been driving myself up the wall with what I want to do as far as a career is concerned. I wanted to become a Certified Registered Nurse Anesthetist, but that means ALL of my thirties and part of my forties working towards that. I don’t have that kind of time! Well, I do, but I don’t want to spend time chasing after something that will take more from me than I would gain. I would sacrifice too much with my family to become a CRNA. So, I’ve finally settled on just becoming an RN. I’ll still be in the medical field, but I can also have the second baby and travel and all those other rainbow and puppy types of things!
The other part of my thought process in why becoming a CRNA won’t work for me is the fact that the schooling would take away from my writing, art, photography, and travel plans. That’s something I’m not willing to sacrifice along with time with my family. I pretty much was biting off more that I needed to chew. I really know what I want and I wasn’t being practical in how I could achieve those goals. But my thought process has settled. My heart rate is back to normal. Life is actually feasible again!
I have a road ahead of me in the things I want to achieve. But the road ahead is easier to see now. It’s perfectly okay to dream big, but those big dreams need to be realistic!